i'm writing a literary analysis of The Catcher in the Rye.  it's pretty basic though.  my thesis is "Holden Caulfield is afraid of growing up; Salinger reveals this theme through the title and its meaning; symbols throughout the book; and Holden's interesting relationship with his younger sister, Pheobe." Well it's coming along pretty nicely and I am happy to report that i will probably not fail this semester of English as i did LAST semester. Praise God.  he has given my new found motivation i.e. GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL.  i have got to get outta here.

my question now is WHAT should i do when i AM out of high school?

haha. well. i'll figure it out.

has anybody read catcher in the rye? it is pretty good isn't it?

don't believe im me. its very depressing i can imagine.  im a very let-downy person.  i let people down. 

 dis-A-pointing.

this is how i feel. 

i'm always telling people. hey we should chill. lets hang out i'll call you. and forget.

or i say hey your birthday's coming up oh cool im gonna get you somthing. then i forget their birthday. 

or you lend me somthing and it takes me a year to give it back.

and im always late. 

and i always half-ass everything i do.

its really no wonder my relationship with God consists of alot of i'm sorry's and not alot of progress. 

i also really need a job.  but my job search. is inactive.  i dont want a job.

and i never make it to school.  always skipping.  always in detention and always with d's and c's in my classes.

bad habbits.

bad work ethic.

lazy.lazy.lazy.

what kinda mom am i gonna be?

actually strike that. who's gonna even  marry me?

i gotta turn this around.

no more procrastination.

i'm getting organized.

i'm gonna remember stuff.

i'm gonna go to school.

i'm gonna do my homework

i'm gonna spend time with God evvvvery day.

i will be more thoughtful.

annnnnd.

I WILL REBUKE CONDEMNATION.